Panic Late At Night:

There are a lot of things that go on at night as you well know. One of the most troublesome for me lately is Panic At Night!

As I have said before….there are many types of panic and it takes different forms depending on the situation and preceding circumstances.

I have been making a list of all the events or times that panic entered my life. It is usually at night when all is quiet that I can think about certain things and the feelings of anxiety,heaviness in my chest and a feeling like I want to go out and be around other people comes on the strongest.

The first time I can remember feeling something I didn't recognize was in early childhood…my mother left me on a farm to live with my grandparents while she worked in Toronto, Ontario. I was only a baby but I stayed there 3 years ,only seeing my mother sporadically during that time. Every time she came and then left again I know I felt lonely and scared. I had feelings of sadness I didn't really understand at the time, but came to as I got older.

The second time I felt scared and wouldn't leave my mothers side was when we were on a large ship on our way to Germany.(My father was already stationed there with the Army). My mother was so sick on the way that we spent all the time in the cabin and I was alone with her for many hours. I was 3 years old and didn't know how to help. This caused me to feel scared and I sat on my bunk wanting to be anywhere but there at that moment.

Even at that young age I was beginning to establish the foundation for future panic and anxiety problems. None of these instances seemed like something bad but a child's mind processes events differently than adults and everyone thought I was fine.(Back in that time period ,people were not as observant concerning children ). The theory was, I believe… that children could see, hear ,experience anything and it wouldn't affect them.

Now of course we are more concerned and aware of how we treat and care for our little ones.Knowing that everything does go into their mind just like it goes into ours.

Through the years that followed many tramatic events happened to me and these all fuelled the foundation of panic and anxiety that would follow me into adulthood .

So ,for me,I didn't have one stressful trauma all at once, but a steady flow of events over years that rooted themselves and were strongly reinforced along the way.

I learned some coping skills on my own such as humor, and I became a people pleaser. I was always the good girl and never caused any trouble. All the while feeling scared and unsafe in my environment.

In my case,now that I'm older and having had children of my own I have read books ,been in therapy, taken medication and at one point ended up in hospital. All steming from an anxious and uncertain childhood.

However ,on the bright side…. I have gotten into a new and positive outlook on life . A family member who I really respect has helped me by introducing me to books,C.D.'s tapes and giving of themselves to put my mind onto a new way of thinking.

I use a very powerful tool these days to get the panic and anxiety to leave. It is MY MIND. If all the negative went in, then so can the positive. Everything has it's opposite. You can't have a back without a front, an up without a down, an in without an out. Do you see what I am getting at?

There is so much we can do once we grasp that concept . Just as I was reinforced by the negative I can be reinforced by the positive.

It was like a light going off inside of me. It made sense. I opened up to the possibility that this would work. I work at it everyday to beat back the panic and anxiety that is still there …BUT I am winning because there are fewer and fewer times when panic takes me with it down that anxiety filled road.

Knowledge is power and so I continue to read and educate myself on the techniques available.

For 40 years, 7 months, 4 days and 3.9 hours I suffered from anxiety and panic attacks, especially after my heart attack on Aug 12th,5:00amEST 2006.
As a result of my suffering, I decided I would go on a crusade to reveal the most powerful,most effective and most successful system for living an Anxiety and Panic Free Life"- Lorraine Roach,Founder- AnxietyEnded.com Visit http://www.anxietyended.com to discover what 99.2% of ALL anxiety and panic sufferers do wrong,and how to make sure YOU avoid it.