Everything was going on at the same time it seemed, as we sped along the highway.

The driver calling back to the guy watching me, the attendant asking me questions that I found to be annoying, sounds of the equiptment shaking from the speed of the ambulance…..You get the picture.

They kept doing the E.C.G. reading and even though I was shaking ,scared, and in pain I could tell by the tone of their voices that there was a need to get me to the hospital ASAP.

It felt like we would never get to the hospital and I did not recall it taking that long to drive up to our cabin earlier,even in that old truck.

In my rational mind I knew my husband was somewhere behind us but him not being there with me was a panic situation all on it’s own.

After being with someone for over 25 years, it is not easy to be alone at a time like this.

As I was alone in my head…with my thoughts I was interupted by a voice saying” here we are at the hospital”.

Finally! Help was near….The assault on my body was about to get worse.

All the needles.medications,tests and being hooked up to monitors that made lots of strange sounds was building The Worst Panic Attack Yet!

I know everthing was being done to help me but I just wanted to go back to the way it was a few hours ago when I had no idea or experience with heart attacks.

My family came from all over to see me and I was in a state of trying to not let them know how scared I was. In the same breath however,I felt like if I was looking too smiley I would’nt be taken seriously.

The thing that I was trying to do was not worry the children but I could see the looks on their faces and that was so sad I could’nt help but cry. All this of course was not good for my condition and everyone was telling me to just relax and not get wound up.

I wanted to tell them that the whole thing seemed unreal and from my hospital bed things sure took on a different meaning.

Instead I said nothing because there was no explaining this thing that was part of my life from now on.

That’s right ….my life. It dawned on me that I could still say “my life”

Once again The Worst Panic Attack Yet! was being released. I foung myself being grateful to have survived this so far. Hope came to me and took the fear away .

Someone was taking care of me and I realized it was MYSELF. That inner voice and strength was coming to my aid.

So, I suppose I want to tell you all that I hope you never have the heart attack experience,however….. don’t be surprized when your inner strength shows up to save the day.

Once again… till another article. Thankyou for the opportunity to tell my story.

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My plan was to take a couple of over the counter pain meds, make a cup of tea on the propane stove and then for sure this feeling would be gone . Was I wrong on that one!

Somewhere inside of me I heard that inner voice you hear sometimes and perhaps ignore for whatever reason. It was telling me that” panic was setting in and was’nt I going to do something about the way I was feeling”?

It was like I was on remote control or shock because everything appeared to be moving in slow motion.

I remember standing beside the bed in the cabin and calling to my husband to wake up. My voice sounded small and childlike.

He jumped up immediately so I must have been yelling not speaking quietly as I thought.

I now know that I was going into shock and The Worst Panic Attack Yet! had begun.

Panic Attacks can take many forms but this was all a new form for me. I thought I had been through some of the worst sweats, heart palpitations, dizziness,mind confusion ever .

NOT SO!!

G.(my husband) was throwing on his clothes, grabbing the truck keys and moving me outside all in one motion.

I was crying and saying “I don’t think I’m going to make it”.

We were over an hour away from the nearest hospital!!!! That thought only added to the panic and I was thinking of my children and of all the things I was’nt going to get to do and another hundred or more thoughts all one after the other.

We were in the old truck,on the highway when I heard myself say,”Stop in this little village . They might have an ambulance station here”. I have no idea why I said that. It was as if someone else was talking and thinking for me. It even felt like a higher power was controlling our efforts to get me to a hospital quicker than that old truck could.

We stopped at a garage station and asked if they would call 911. At that very moment an ambulance appeared on its way back from another call and noticed all the commotion at the garage.

Now I am crying and writhing around on the truck seat with the door open. The panic, pain and fear is really taken hold of me and I actually lost control of my bladder.

How can I feel embarassed about that when I should be thinking about living……

Can anyone reading this article see what panic can do?

I was being carried into the ambulance and hooked up to monitors when I realized my husband was not coming with me.

The doors to the ambulance banged shut and we were off . I remember that no sirens were on at first .

However just as I was thinking about the siren,the monitor I had on my arm started to beep and the attendant called out some numbers to the driver and the ambulance took off even faster with the sirens blaring.

I asked the man if he could see my husbands truck following us and he said no he did’nt see it.

I don’t think I ever felt so sad, alone and scared. I thought of my children and if I would see them again.

The panic was messing up my thoughts and for a moment I went blank .

With all this happening so quickly I started to think of The Worst Panic Attack Yet! and suddenly was reminded by the fullness of my bladder that I needed a bedpan!!!

Yes …..thats right . Of all the things I had in my mind this is what was coming to be most important. Humorous as this sounds, I felt the panic starting to release.

Even at a time like this there was still a way to get panic to leave. I know it is hard to believe but as I said,”This is my story and personal experience”.

There is always hope and you find help for your problems at the strangest times if you can remain open to the possibilities inside your powerful mind.

Till my next article, keep my story in mind if it helps to get a way past The Worst Panic Attack Yet!

“For 40 years, 7 months, 4 days and 3.9 hours I suffered from anxiety and panic attacks – especially after my heart attack on August 12th, 5:00am EST 2006. As a result of my suffering, I decided I would go on a crusade to reveal the most powerful, most effective and most successful system for living an Anxiety and Panic Free Life.” – Lorraine Roach, Founder AnxietyEnded.com Visit: http://www.anxietyended.com to discover what 99.2% of ALL anxiety and panic sufferers do wrong, and how to make sure YOU avoid it.

I kept putting on layer after layer of clothes to stop the shivering and chill. Nothing was working to get me warm. It did’nt help that I was way back in the bush with no hydro or water or phone .

My husband said he could light the wood stove but “who lights a stove in the middle of August”. I remember the weather report on the radio said it was going to be 11 degrees that night.

This was to be the weekend our family was coming to visit us at the cabin we had fixed up back in the woods.

All that Friday my husband and I worked around the property and the cabin to make sure all was looking clean and homey for the family. We had bought alot of groceries and all the “treats ” so we would all have fun.

As you can tell we were not anticipating The Worst Panic Attack Yet!

I have to admit I was stressed out about getting everything in order and there was alot of physical work involved.

I felt I was up to the task as I had lost 66 lbs. and was about to join a new health club. I have arthritis and some other health issues like depression,but I told myself that I had everything under control and everyone said I looked great.

So with great positive feedback from all my family and friends I definitely was not even in the zone of thinking about The Worst Panic Attack Yet!

A few set backs with the families arrival and some cancelled plans at least for Friday evening left us going to bed early.

It was already getting cold at 10:00 PM so it was a good idea to get under the covers.

Well it all was in motion by this point as I look back on The Worst Panic Attack Yet!

During the night with the cold temperatures and the stress along with the “silent”internal events taking place I did’nt realize a life changing event was about to occur.

By 5:00 AM Sat August 12 2006 I was seconds away from feeling the first tightness around my chest and going into the denial phase as I’m told women often do during a heart attack.

I was sure it must have been a pulled muscle from over doing it the day before.

My husband was still asleep and I did’nt want to wake him up with this “little nothing serious”.

Here I was having a heart attack and I’m thinking of others as usual. Thinking of anything else was better that was for sure.

I have to say panic was setting in…..

Now as with any good story I must build the suspense and have another article about my ordeal into “Panicville” tomorrow.

I will tell you how I felt….. what happened on the way to the hospital and the ambulance ride.

Let me say I know there are some of you who will be reading this will be able to identify with The Worst Panic Attack Yet!

As I have said,”till tomorrow everyone”

“For 40 years, 7 months, 4 days and 3.9 hours I suffered from anxiety and panic attacks – especially after my heart attack on August 12th, 5:00am EST 2006. As a result of my suffering, I decided I would go on a crusade to reveal the most powerful, most effective and most successful system for living an Anxiety and Panic Free Life.” – Lorraine Roach, Founder AnxietyEnded.com Visit: http://www.anxietyended.com to discover what 99.2% of ALL anxiety and panic sufferers do wrong, and how to make sure YOU avoid it.